Stream of Conscientiousness

"con-sci-en-tious: (adj.) Governed by conscience, scrupulous || Characterized by or done with careful attention." --- Man, I was way off.

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Location: Chicago, Illinois

I'm the wildest laid back person you'll ever meet. I wash my body first, hair last. I make one loop when I tie my shoes, not the bunny ears. Yet I prefer loafers. I'm in the market for a good pair of headphones, ones that won't wear out. Something akin to Gurgi's unending pouch of food (Lloyd Alexander fans??). I appreciate people that call me out when I'm bullshitting. I appreciate people helping me cut past the bullshit. I appreciate you if you've read this far. I've never owned a Zippo. I only recently learned how to dress myself. Bacci Pizza saved my life. More than once. It could save yours too. I dabble in acting. Any sentimental media about fathers makes me misty. Any sentimental media about children or puppies makes me roll my eyes. I love children and puppies, just not all forms of sentimentality. I am constantly on the lookout for my lucky dime.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Mainstream

main-stream (v.): to watch an entire series in one go on Netflix, Hulu, and some other streaming service.

So what do you do? You go home at night, exhausted from your day job, wherein you work hard and fumble for the weekend, for the possibility of dreams that can play out over Saturday and Sunday, your chance to finally clean the house, organize your closet, your bathroom drawers, throw away all the junk food (ok, maybe eat all the junk food, and resolve not to buy anymore), exercise, exercise exercise, and...

You stare at your phone. You see that there are people that are enjoying life by consuming media - music and TV and movies and pictures and articles and there is so much, so much, it's all delicious, and you've always wanted to know all these things, have things to talk about, be a smarter person a fuller person a more complete person. And so you set out to absorb it all, like taking a dropper of the ocean and putting it in your own reservoir, drop by drop by drop, and you build your reservoir, and it is not quite as full as everyone else's, so you feel a lacking, a wanting, a need to explore, maybe you should take a trip, clean the house, do all the things you always want to...

But maybe it is just easier to watch Netflix. Find a new show. Watch Fringe. 70 episodes? Oh thank goodness - there is so much to consume. And then you will be the Fringe expert. No one will know as much about Fringe as you. JJ Abrams will overhear you talking about Fringe in a coffee shop and he will say, "Yes. You got it. You. You are the one." And your reservoir will overflow and commingle with the streams from other reservoirs and you WILL be one with everyone.

But that's a silly dream while you're sitting on your couch.

Get up. Turn off your screens. Turn off your phone. Turn off the radio. Listen to your own voice. All of these aspirations are inside of you. You just need to give yourself the time to listen to it. And not just 30 minutes of meditation or an hour of yoga.

Your mind will slow down. You'll lose the need for lists. You will simply know what you must do, and you will do it.

Thursday, May 09, 2013

Mission

Create wonder for others in every moment.